I'm stuffed. All the food I ate and plus the big-ass I baked. And also been thinking about alot of things today. My boy Ty called me and wished me a happy thanksgiving. This is the same nigga I told ya'll about
that kept cancelling dates but I got over it. I was so mad at him that I swore I will tell him off the minute I saw him but I didn't. I forgot when he smiled at me. When I got to class , I cried at my seat.
My best friend Tiffany knew what was goin on or so it seemed. I was mad at myself by not telling him
how I felt. I felt so shitty for the rest of the day.

I'm on the basketball team. JV, of course. The reasons I joined is because people kept hassling me about joining one. I remember I was at the Golden Corral 2 years ago and this guy came up to me and
said "U like basketball?",i said "kinda". He gave me his card and my momma snatched the card out my hands and said "Don't accept nothin from no stranger",and put it in her pocketbook. I never call him.

1. Halloween -Excuse-Babysitting
2. Election Day-Excuse-Work
3. Weekend-Excuse-????

Goddamn! As soon as I get into a relationship, I'm out of it again. He broke up wit me on Monday. Dumb Fucker, his loss. I'm eyeing this one boy but I'm not sure if he like me. I'mma try to throw hints
that I like him. He cute, but he quiet. I told ya I don't like quiet boys. He talk with me though.

I haven't post in a while cuz it wasn't fun without my friend Nita. But I got somethings going on with me. I finally got a boyfriend, his name is Isaac. He's cute, taller than me, light-skinned. AND HE GOT
THE SOFTEST LIPS!!! We have been together for 2 weeks. We had our problems but we worked it out. I like this other boy more then him but I can't have him. He's says he thinks as me as his "sister. He
shot me down so nicely I can't get mad at him. But I hang with him, he talks alot. It's a plus because I hate quiet boys. I wish I had my room to myself, my sister and my nephew in here watching "John Q".
They can watch it downstairs!!




Yay! My girl Nita is back!!!


thanks for the banner!!!

I get no respect from anyone. People who claim to be friends, family, even my own mother. She's the worse. She put me down and act like she's teaching me something. She never taught me anything,I learned on my own. She think I'm lazy. I do most of the cleaning and cooking. I'm not sayin she has to something, but get me respect. I'm just a tax claim to her. I just here to serve her. It's just finicial shit to her. I always tell her how much I appreciate her but I don't get that back. I really don't need money from her. I want a mother,not a warden. I'm trapped by the fear of her. I'm afraid of her. She ain't never tell me "Protect yourself when you have sex", she says,"Have sex,I'll stomp ya pussy and I'm gonna find the boy and chop it off."I'm always swamped with chores and I don't complain. Then she gives me a lecture on how lazy I am. A mother is not suppose to make you feel down about yourself,which she does all the time. Something is always wrong with me. My clothes,hair,my feelings,the way I write. When I'm mad and she ask me what's wrong and I tell her, she says "You are not suppose to feel that way". My mom is a dominate person. If she says it's hot,she expects you to be hot. I do everything she says and more. Even when I don't want to be bothered and I just want to lay on my bed and think,she tell me to do something I do it. I'm her only child that is....how do I say it..... haven't given her stress. My oldest sister was on drugs (but she is now clean), my brother was disrespectful towars her,they got into alot of arguments(they are now on speakin terms),and my other sister like to hang with boys and ya know(but she settle down,she got a child now). But me....I turned out to be different. I'm a virgin. I don't hook school. I don't do drugs. I don't stay out late. And when I cry, she say some hurtful words "I don't care. Go ahead and cry". It makes me cry even more because to hear your mother say it,it stabbed me. The most hurtful thing she said to me was "You are stupid,lazy,and ignorant!"all because I ate 4 pieces of chicken and they was little. I cried for a day. I wish that my mother would be my mother.

 I wanna go outside but the cicadas crawl on me and they are just creepy. On my porch,it's like 50 of them having a meeting,my tree is worse, it's like 5,000 or more. One flew on me yesterday, i almost died. Those red eyes scare the bejesus out of me. ugh........i know they don't bite...they are just scary. I'm always strong around my friend Kiera,cuz she is more afraid of them than I am. She is so scared of them that she took a bus only a couple of blocks to adviod a street with millions of them on it. And she dragged me along. I can't wait till the go back in the ground.

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i'mma start doing pluggins like i am somebody!! but anyway, another boring day. i'm tired of being single!! i can't find that someone for me. i need to stop complaining and do it on my own. Cuz sometimes my friends try to hook me up with people who is just wrong for me. My friend Monique said I was gonna end up with someone who's white & rich. Hey, I date a white boy,ain't nothing wrong with that. But the ones I know are goofy but they make goof friends. I'm watchin the Nets/Pistons game and I'm hopin my team the Nets make a comback. They down 23,and they about to the 4th quarter!!! I love Kenyon Martin!! I love his defense, but he can't shot 3's. Yes, I'm a girl and i watch basketball not for the booty......sometimes

Well, i spent the night over my sisters house....not intentionally. I was over there the whole day yesterday and my mom called around 8 askin am I staying,I told her yes. But usually I call her. I know what it is.....my mom's boyfriend is over. I was thinkin about it but didn't really pay no mind. So I played with the babies till I fell asleep. I left at around 9:30 because they was goind to church and my hair ain't done. I came in the house and guess who I saw....her boyfriend!! I knew I knew it!!! This may not excite ya'll but it did me. Anyway another story. I been talkin to this dude on blackplanet for a while. And he is so cool. Ya'll wouldn't believe a boy could be so perfect. I haven't been to his page in a while so I went there and his pic showed up. He's cute but he wasn't what i pictured in my head. I need to stop doing that. I get my hopes up too damn high sometimes. He's really really cute, but I pictured him as Omarion.

6'5.......atleast a size 12 shoe......200.....bankin 1000! naw i'm playin on the last one. I don't care if he bankin alot, i just don't want to pay for everything. As a young woman I don't have to!! No skool today. Professional Development day for teachers. I remember a while back when we had two days off! What happened?The system broke that's why! I can't wait til next month....I'm goin to New York. I went there once when I was 3. My mom,my sister,and my nephew,and I are going for a family reunion. We went to one in Connecticut and we had to go through NY. It was so beauitful! It look like we was near Bed-Stuy,we went through Central Park,and we saw the Yankee Stadium,Ground Zero,and we went through Spanish Harlem. Ahhh! I'm excited

Whoo!! I'm tired of my hair. My hair is short but when it's flipped it's cute. The rest of the time it's in a little ass ponytail. I usually get cornrows, my sister does it. I don't want my mother to do it because she give me big dookie "Color Purple" braids! I got what u call "nigga" hair. My mom got real good hair but my father got nappy ass hair so I got it from him. Yeesh!! The only times I like my hair is when it's permed, braided, or I got a afro. I love my afro.